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Caption: LISTEN UP!!!! ITS MY DAMM BIRTHDAY!! I have taken 44 trips around the sun. This last year, the universe pushed me in a way I can only describe as deconstructed… more LISTEN UP!!!! ITS MY DAMM BIRTHDAY!! I have taken 44 trips around the sun. This last year, the universe pushed me in a way I can only describe as deconstructed with an ending sprinkled with decompress. I needed to find me again. I needed to start loving myself differently. Universe poked me one morning when I felt the worst to cheer myself up with a photo shoot for this very day, no makeup, unwashed hair a mess. I was not sure how this was going to go. I liked the idea of not spending an hour or more on hair and makeup.. I put on some music and found some of my favorite items that made me feel good. The textures and weight of the pearls and fur sunk into my skin , my favorite songs blaring those lounge soul soothing gritty horn sounds saturated my brain. The tightness of my corsette holding me up so I could just rest. I had fun. It didn't sink in until later. I had been running on expectations from everyone else. When faced with the question, who are you..I could answer the cover page answers, and they weren't wrong, just not complete. I was faced with the big question of what do you want to do? Oh god... i had no idea anymore.....that hurt. I needed to find the love of what I was doing with my life and my purpose again. That needed to come first. The things that permitted my soul and inspired me. The things that brought me joy. I needed to reconnect. What does that look like moving forward.... I have no idea, and that's the beauty of it. I dont need to. I just need to enjoy my life for awhile. Get my spark back and breathe. less
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